Sincere condolences to you and your family, hope you guys will all be able to live through this and see brighter days ahead. My girl's 19 today and I just cannot even fathom the thought..
So sorry for your loss.
My 5year old daughter is in my lap as I'm typing this sick with a 104 temp. I couldn't imagine not having my children around or what that must feel like.
Hang in there and confide in your friends and family. Don't hesitate to vent and talk with someone when you need to.