Thanks I think you hit the nail on the head! I had recently been caring / always caring for someone for over 20 years now. We ran into one another just recently after no contact for the 20 years or so. I have been hung up on her for a very very long time. Bad enough to make me wonder if my wife of 10 years was the right one. When reuniting after 20 years via the net excited to chat. We caught up on life and family over the last couple weeks. We even sent pics back and forth and talked on the phone for a voice check. We are both married and happy with our spouces ( but I wondered if I was until I got it all out ) . I should have told her way back then how I felt and had been holding it in for all those years. Actually looking for her on and off through the last 20 yrs. I finally had to tell her what was bottled up inside, it took me a few days pc by pc. But I think I finally emptied it all out as of yesterday. I am now sleeping a few more hours than I have been. If it wasn't for her willing to listen to me telling her what I felt. Like if she shut me out and quit talking to me. I would be totally screwed and probably to a counseler. As of yet we still talk and text back and forth. She is a wonderful woman to have listened to me. This just goes to show me that life takes us on some strange journeys, weather I like what journey I have taken or not such is life. I have always linked my life to music and to my favorite band Great White and Jack Russells solo album. As the days have passed with her my songs have changed running through my head. it went from GW "Heartbreaker" to GW "Silent Night " then now Jack Russells "The Best is Yet Come" I think I have some what counciled myself through this. Songs changing from Jelousy against her hubby , to regret of not telling her what i was thinking and the life I chose , to Life a head of my self... It was rugged I have never been so immotional in my life. Crying all the time, Joy that I found her , then regret that I was married and had kids , then knowing that even if I was single she was married and there was no way in hell that anything would happen between us again. Because she was married. More or less we both will never cheat on our spouces period. I told her that later in life if we are still living and our spouces have passed on. We might be old and haggard but then we can give it another try.. She agreed with a smile.
Whew another counsiling sesson gone good, Each time I talk the easier it becomes to let go
Just remember " it's time to realise........ the best is yet to come" Jack Russell's "Best is yet to come"
Gannon